A Chris-in-the-morning inspired blog. Somewhere I can hypothesis on human nature and narrate my own journey of self discovery. That sounds so cheesy! Basically somewhere that I can just spill out the contents of my head.

 
It's amazing how quickly a person can regress. In a matter of minutes I had rolled back to a former state of being.
I met up with Todd yesterday at uni. We chatted for a while and during the conversation he asked if I was going to Eddie's birthday thing this friday. I replied that I didn't know. I know Eddie and he's a good friend of my sisters but I wasn't sure if I'd be welcome at his birthday. Apparently I will be. He emailed just about everyone he knows so my presence will certainly not be offensive. What has so thoroughly rocked my boat was that during the little tete a tete where my sister was asking Eddie if it was okay for me to go, it was mentioned by Eddie with an accompanying wink that Matt would be there. Apparently even Eddie thinks that something should be going on between myself and Matt.
What's really pulling my strings at the moment is how quickly I had reverted. In matter of minutes I was getting out all my clothes too see which look hotest and trying to decide what I should wear. I don't even know why I was doing that. Was I doing it because I want to look hot to show Matt what he's missing out on? Or because I want to look great to seduce him.
I thought I had got over him. To a large extent anyway. Now I'm deciding that I'm going to get my hair cut tomorrow, I'm going to do my nails etc. Argh! What the hell is wrong with me.
Although all through this I can't quite get Chris out of my head. Good sign that Matt is not taking up all of my limerent thoughts as he once would have.

posted by Megan at 10:22 PM