A Chris-in-the-morning inspired blog. Somewhere I can hypothesis on human nature and narrate my own journey of self discovery. That sounds so cheesy! Basically somewhere that I can just spill out the contents of my head.

 
Many lots of f words over and over again.
Okay so I haven't done an update since the eigth. The night of the eigth went about as well as it couldhave. Long story short (I'll fill in the details when I'm in a better mood sometime.) Matt and I are now together. At least I think we are. He walked me back from Eddie's and ended up staying ages. We kissed and I sent him back to Ediies around an hour later. He didn't want to go and I didn't really want him to but he said he'd come over on sunday. Definitly. He actually used the word definitly. It's ten past 8 on sunday night. Hence the many f words. What did I do? Did I do something wrong? I've basically wasted a whole day that I could have spent studying in the library because I wanted to clean up here a little before he turned up. There has been someone here all day long. I've only been out of the house for maybe 20 minutes the whole day long. Why didn't he come. Why isn't he here.
I really wanted to get everything sorted out before he went back to Rotorua. It was lovely but kind of weird on saturday morning. A little unfinished sort of. Where is he?
I don't know whether I'm more angry or disappointed.
I had so much pent up energy which I would have rather been using up on Matt, but instead I went for a very quick bike ride. I did that stalker thing. I went to the end of Fox street to see if his car was still at Eddie's. It wasn't on the street and so far as I know that's where it would be if he were still there. So I guess that means he's gone back. Without seeing me.

posted by Megan at 1:04 AM