A Chris-in-the-morning inspired blog. Somewhere I can hypothesis on human nature and narrate my own journey of self discovery. That sounds so cheesy! Basically somewhere that I can just spill out the contents of my head.

 
Why did I have to develop one of my obsessions for Chris after they stop showing NX. Maybe absence makes the heart grow fonder as they say. Or maybe it's my hormones, I think it's also somewhat due to how the character developed in the last season. The whole romantic thing with Maggie. It was a side of Chris I hadn't seen before, and wish I could see more of now.
I actually dreamed about Chris last night. It was weird.
I had the feeling I didn't usually live wherever he does. I was in a building with him and he had a bed in a cubicle type place. We were both sitting on the end of it. Then he lay down on the bed. I think he sighed. Then he said
'I think we've got a problem here.'
Apparently dream me knew what the problem was he liked me. A lot. For some reason this was not a good thing for Chris. Dream me was secretly happy. Chris was a little upset. Maybe he was being a monk or something. There followed a conversation about seeing how things went. Because Chris is not going to disregard his feelings for whatever reason. And if he persists in liking me he'll just have to give in. Something to that effect. I'm sure that there was touching at some point. A hand on my arm or a quick hug, something of the like because this morning, when I thought of the dream the only thing I coul remember for a number of minutes was the feeling of touch and the general shape of the man. Then I remembered who it was. Sigh. Why can't I get this in real life.
I've been wondering recently if my non-enthusiasm for work and the like is at least partly attributable to my pining for a man. Unfortunately there are none around that I feel I could get into a relationship with. Adrian at Taiko is nice. We've started chatting a bit more. Could be friends there. And I saw Todd again yesterday. I really don't think that we'd be that good together but I can't help thinking about what Lisa said. Todd is good looking. And not a little hot. Sometimes I've wondered. But I don't want to look like the girl who has dated all of them. Mark then Cloud, if I'd had my way Matt, then Todd. To complete the circle that would leave Ivan. Ha! Personally I'll just be happy to keep up a more regular chain of communication with Todd. I do like his company.
Then there is David at Taiko. He's one of the senior members of the group and has come along a couple of times to the practices. He starts teaching next week. Personally I hope he teaches Ujigawa because that's what my group is up to now. Although I don't really find him attractive he has a Chrisness about him. Yes laugh if you will. Back onto Chris again. But I'm always like this about someone I've dreamed about. Anyway, in looks he has something Chris about him, I think it's mostly in his eyes, but the rest of the face too. So much so that I started the first time he came to the wednesday practice. Then he has a Chris aura about him as well. Like he thinks about big things or you know Chrisness. Anyway he seems to draw my eye. When I'm not concentating on the song anyway. I stress again not because I think him hot but because this Chrisness draws the eye. I guess it's like having contact with Cicely again.

posted by Megan at 3:27 PM